Friday, January 08, 2010

I'VE MISSED YOU!

Well, I pondered . . .
I debated . . .
I deliberated . . .
I fretted . . .
I lost sleep . . .

. . . all over coming back on here and writing this post. Can you imagine how crazy that sounds? I mean, it's just a silly old blog, right?

Not so much. This blog has been very special to me over the last 7-8 months. I have shared parts of my life with you, both by words and by pictures. I have read your blogs and looked at your pictures, and have gotten to know each of you in a very special little way. I truly feel like you are my friends.

Over the past month, I have not contributed to my blog, but I have kept up with you. I followed you through the merriment and pre-Christmas frenzy. I drooled over your yummy holiday treats and enjoyed reading about your family traditions. I read your entries right into the new year, and through my fever and flu-induced fog, I silently wished you all a very happy New Year, even if I didn't have the energy to post it on my blog.

And, all this time, the longer I went without blogging, the harder it became for me to "take that first step" and write this post. You know how it is when you've neglected a friend and the longer you put off calling, the harder it is to do it, out of guilt and shame?  Well, that's kinda how I felt about this. Sounds silly, but it's true.

I've kept up with Lucy at Attic 24, and I'm so envious of her enthusiasm, her zest, her talent, and just the color and cheer she shares almost every single day. I've wondered at times if she's really FOR REAL. Truly, can anyone be that zany and delightful every day and have the energy to get online and share it with the world? If you've been to her blog, you know what I'm talking about. If you haven't, you need to go on a little adventure to Attic 24. There are times when my world seems dark, dreary, and daunting, and I can take a little journey into Lucy's world and come out on the other side with a smile on my face.

Why did I just tell you all that? Perhaps I just want to confess to all of you that I don't walk on water. I've become a frumpy old hermit, of sorts, and I'm just not happy with myself. I have so many blessings in my life, and sometimes I have trouble keeping those in perspective. In all my fretting and lamenting about blogging, I've come to believe that it's okay not to be perfect, and it's okay to get on here and complain or moan and groan about life if I want to. Rather than keep everything inside, it's okay to share with you when I'm having a grumpy day and when I just don't want to face the world. It's okay to use this space to journal my way through some of the speed bumps I'm facing. I don't have to be chipper and smiley all the time. Right?

So, that's part of the reason I've avoided blogging for over a month. I just haven't felt like it. I didn't want to paint a dismal picture on everyone's Christmas spirit. In years past, I've jumped into the fall and holiday seasons with gusto, having my tree decorated and presents wrapped BEFORE December 1st. For those of you who follow my daughter's blog, you know that this year, I was wrapping presents ON CHRISTMAS! Oh the horror! Poor Hunter was so traumatized due to my severe lack of Christmas jolliness! Turns out, her dad, who fully admits to being Mr. Grinch with a capital "G", stepped right up and helped to make Hunter's Christmas a little brighter. He helped her with the tree, and they actually put lights up on the house. That, my friends, is really something! I love my husband dearly, but Christmas cheer has never been his forte. So, thank you, JC, for bringing a little Santa into Hunter's world.

Okay, so to conclude all this long-windedness, I just want to say Merry Christmas, belatedly, and I hope all of you have the most wonderful new year ever! As we move into 2010, I resolve to get on here and share happy things and not-so-happy things. I resolve to do my best to let you all know just how much I appreciate you sharing little bits of your world with me. I may not have a lot to say, but know that I am here. I will resolve to be a better blogging buddy with my comments and words of encouragement. And, if I miss a day or two of blogging, I'm not going to beat myself up over it.

Hopefully this weekend, I'll be able to get some pictures posted. In all my frumpy-grumpiness, I've still been crocheting like crazy and have some things to show off. Oh, and my sister bought me a sewing machine for Christmas. Remember a few months ago when I was going on and on about wanting a sewing machine, even though I have absolutely no clue how to use one? :)  Well, friends, she took me seriously, and I'm going to learn. Hang on tight, it's gonna be a bumpy ride!

8 comments:

  1. YAY!!! I'm so happy to see you're back! I've missed you. I've been thinking about you but decided to just leave you alone for awhile if that's what you needed. I'm glad it didn't take that long.

    I guess I can only speak for myself, but I bet there are many others who feel the same way I do...I have grown to like you and love you and enjoying hearing from you. And if you were perfect, I wouldn't like you so much. None of us are perfect..sometimes it's the little flaws and imperfections that make us so endearing and approachable.

    Am I gushing too much? Okay, I'll stop, but welcome back!

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  2. I AM SO HAPPY YOU ARE BACK!

    I have looked every day to see if you have posted something and was getting ready to call out the National Guard to find out where you were. Good grief. Frumpy, grumpy, join the crowd. We can't all be perfect (and I know what you mean about Lucy -- does the woman never have a bad day?). I know I'm not. Perfect is only a "word." Welcome back, Sweetie!

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  3. Mz. Keri I havvvvvvEEEEEEE MISSED U! I kept coming to peek and nothing and I thought that you were possible working lots of hours! I did however read post that Hunter posted about you wrapping her present on xmas morning....and you wrote a OH Hunter back to here but other than that I was wondering were my friend Keri had been. I have been busy and have only been posting like once a week and like you I lurk and admire everyone's creations. Well nice to know that you are still among us and I look forward to seeing some of your latest creations. Post happy xmas and new year!
    Hugs
    glo

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  4. You shouldn't feel so badly about not posting on your blog. Just look, you had people who were just waiting for you to come back!

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  5. Wow I have wondered where you were and am so glad that you are back. Believe me I know about ups and downs but speaking for myself I really enjoy your company on here and hope you will know that we all want to hear from you again.

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  6. Hi Keri! Gee, because of the move, I was away a couple of months MYSELF! It's not a sin if you simply needed some time away! We're just glad to see you back! Can't wait to see what you've been crocheting! Happy New Year to you! ~tina

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  7. welcome back! can't wait to see what the new year brings!

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  8. SO GLAD TO HEAR THAT YOUR FEELING BETTER. I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING FOR CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR EITHER. I WASN'T SICK I JUST DIDN'T HAVE THE CHRISTMAS SPRIT. AS FOR POSTING I'M BEHIND ON THAT TO. I STILL HAVEN'T POSTED ABOUT THE AWARD THING YOU GAVE ME. I'M STILL TRYING TO FIGURE OUT 6 THINGS ABOUT MYSELF. I TRY BUT GET SIDE TRACKED WITH LIFE. WILL TRY TO GET THAT DONE BEFORE TIM GOES IN THE HOSPITAL. ANYWAY, DON'T FEEL BAD ABOUT FEELING BAD. IT'S YOUR BLOG DO WITH IT WHAT YOU WANT. I DO KNOW HOW YOU FEEL THOUGH, I HATE TO POST ABOUT FEELING BAD TO. I DON'T WANT ANYONE FEELING SORRY FOR ME. BUT HOW CAN WE GET THE LOVE WE NEED FROM OUR FRIENDS IF WE DON'T TELL THEM WE NEED THEIR HELP.LOVE YOU KERI AND I'M GLAD YOUR FEELING BETTER.

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